Honestly I don’t know how to start this post, it’s the most personal thing I’ve ever written for my blog. Sharing the emotions of losing a loved one is therapeutic for me and I hope to anyone who has been or is going through similar situations. This post is not to address the nosey inconsiderate messages my family and I have been receiving.
The biggest thing I’ve learned is people don’t know. You cannot possibly know until you’ve been there- how it feels or what to say or better yet NOT say. Every day some one asks me how I am doing, and the honest answer… I don’t know. I don’t know how I feel most the time. I don’t know what to do. I don’t know how to act. I don’t know how I am supposed to move forward. I just don’t know.
My sister died 18 days ago and I still have times when I think she’s going to walk in the door yelling at us for feeding the kids donuts. That’s the worst feeling in grieving for me, the “forgetting”. The, I need to call her to ask her what I feed the baby, thought that quickly gets turned to the, I can never call her again, thought. It’s been a hurricane of emotions since I found out. It circles almost minutely- pain, loss, forgetting, why and how, the what if’s. I have even thought, technology is incredible, they can do something. 18 days later and logically I know they can’t but I still genuinely feel like some doctor should be able to help. Unfortunately though, no one can change what’s happened; I have to learn to live life without my sister and best friend.
That’s what this post and future post (regarding my sister) will be about. The process of my grieving and how I’m managing and moving forward. For my new readers, I moved to London 5 days before my sister died so I’ll be doing it while also figuring out the ins and outs of London.
3 reasons why you NEED to do a sister photo shoot!
YOU CAN HANG THEM IN YOUR HOUSE
Okay so I can’t be the only person that ALWAYS seems to have a sneaky drink in pictures, a weird man creeping in the background, one of us is making a crazy face?! Maybe it was just us, but none the less I won’t hang photos like that in my house. I mean, my in laws don’t need to see me in my most unforgiving form, am I right? This photo shoot gave us the perfect background, lighting and our outfits were on point!
We found the most cringe worthy sister/best friend photos on Pinterest and made it a reality! It was goofy and made for lots of genuine laughing, perfect for the camera and so much fun!
YOU’LL HAVE THEM FOREVER
Don’t take for granted your time with your sister(s)! Trust me! Make every second count because once it’s gone, that’s it. Totally not trying to sound morbid but for real y’all! Photos last forever, so take them!
Please reach out if you are grieving a loved one! I would love to hear how you’re doing and what you’ve found helpful.